blurry

You are rain
i`m the leafs you`re raining on
you`re the second wind blowing
i`m the first already gone
you live your life with notes
i live mine with words
that to you are way too blurry
and to me you`re on too early

You represent everything i`ve ever wanted
i`m the things you thought you needed 
but you were wrong
you`re my dreams of tomorrow
i`m the hopes from what you moved on
you are my fear of love
i`m yours of forever staying just one
and now i`m sure i waited too long
to take my mask off
when you didn`t at all
still i know you know
i don`t wanna destroy you
so what are you doing here
i`ve already said you`re free to leave dear
but don`t hesitate to run
cuz as soon as you do
i`ll be the helpless one
running behind trying to catch you

You`re light
i`m the darkness you`re living in
you`re right
ì`m your fine line between redemption and sin
you break your promises with tears
i break mine with fears
that to you are way too blurry
and to me you`re on too early

worried mind won't let go of its problems

This worried mind
is keeping me from living my life
so i cry
and i can`t sleep at night
but it doesn`t stop
it goes on and on
so i had better leave
but who will watch my family when i`m gone
maybe i should make a lot of money
but who will handle all the brambles that this money will bring along
i`m gonna let some love come
but who will tell my heart that worried mind
is beggin` me to say no
so i`m gonna tell him that i`m sorry
but who will help me to get by
when i see him waving goodbye
if you get a chance to talk to him
would you say none of this means
that i don`t own his feelings
i just couldn`t act upon them and
i`m mostly trying to keep breathing

Worried mind when will you turn
and why won`t you become
something i can live with for this time
and not just spend my life on a not committed crime

walking under the sea

I always look outside my window
when it rains
as if the waters from above would wash away and heal
building a river
where i`d float towards the answer
i`ve been waiting for
my entire existence
always waiting for rain
and of getting wet
never afraid
when for a moment i step out of me
it feels like walking under the sea

shielded

Not ready yet
i cant remember how many times
i`ve boiled that thought in my mind
i know this is a hard thing to say
but honey, can i push you away?
don`t know how to explain
or even who to blame
i have that little girl inside for a pet
and she tells me i`m just not ready yet

I don`t even have to ask do I
i always stop myself before getting close to that line
i`ve had daydreams in which i was saved from me
but i can`t quite figure it out
if this is something i really need
this sea just got waveless, blueless and helpless
and i`m afraid nothing will ever be strong, 
safe and good enough
to the point where i can at least get rid of this shield
i have loneliness inside for a pet
and it insists i`m just not ready yet

My hand still writes,
my fingers still play
and i still push everybody away
i believed i knew how long this was supposed to stay,
i remember the night i prayed
"Please don`t let me be fooled by any faked smile
nor any friendly face,
i just want to be able to feel when he comes
i`m sure i`ll know he`s the one to whom
i can give my trust"
then i`ll give up my pride
and no more will i hide
but i have craziness inside for a pet
telling me i`m just not ready yet